(Ha, I apparently never hit send on this! Trying again. Can you tell Lance is out of town? I can't even figure out how to send an email through Wix! )
Thursday I was in the worst mood. Literally everything triggered me. I had woken up early to start the bakery and right off the bat I was swimming upstream. I made stupid mistakes - like not having enough coconut oil and needing an SOS Instacart order. It was just a bunch of dumb insignificant things- yet they made me MAD. Then my family innocently started waking up and coming into the kitchen. They met the monster head on….and all they wanted was a bagel!
Sitting here 24 hours later, I know I was a disaster. And I feel really bad. But I was stressed. Every minute counts when I am baking- especially when all my kids are home and need rides, and meals and a nice(ish) mom! I think it’s partially mom guilt- the bakery is kinda for me. And I know I am not as present as I used to be. But my kids are getting bigger and hopefully more self-sufficient. I suppose my stress is just more noticeable when they are home. During the school year, my daily goal is to have everything cleaned up by the time they get home from school- so our house actually feels like a house and not a bakery!
I usually pride myself on having perspective. Yesterday I was in my own little world. It was a pity party with no real reason for pity. And it was no party- just ask my family! I woke up this morning to no alarm and coffee waiting for me by my bed. Not sure which of my kids delivered it- but that’s a sign of unconditional love! 😍
We are baking on Thursday this week!
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